Welcome to my first blog post. Well it’s the first blog post that you are actually seeing. I’ve written several starting blog posts but never actually posted them. When it comes to blogging (and a few other things in my life) I have had some apprehensions and a little fear of “getting out of the gate” but this time is different. I was watching a video of Tobias Lütke, the founder of Shopify and he was talking about being your true self in business and letting others see your authentic story and even your struggle. This hit home with me because I think that often times when it comes to certain parts of my business I have failed to start things because I felt inadequate or that they weren’t quite right. I look at other blogs with their perfect pictures and witty posts and thought that I needed a little more time or another photography class before putting my thoughts “out there.” I’ve seen editorial calendars and thought that I better not post unless I had 3 months of planned posts/ideas ready to whip out of my back pocket. I second guessed whether what I had to say was helpful or if I could communicate it in a meaningful way. So starting now I am setting all of that hesitation aside and I am going to make this blog 100% authentic about my journey to share my journaling passion in a very unique way.
I think this would be the perfect spot to introduce myself. You can click on the ABOUT page of my website and get the colorful bio but since we are keeping it 100… at the end of every day when I look in the mirror I am a girl with a dream and a message and a desire to share what I know and love with the world in a different way. I hate the norm, but I have been guilty of hiding behind the norm while I wistfully try to create the thing that will let me leave my special mark in the world. I’m a night owl but that designation is currently not working for me. I have two boys and a technology entrepreneur husband that need seeing about and they do things during normal people hours (like everybody else) and therefore I acquiesce to a schedule that I would prefer not to. I make journals. Yes, journals. Not books but journals. And it’s important to me that people make the distinction. One day I will share the story about how I started making journals but this post is already getting a little long so we will skip it for now. But yes, I make journals so I have given myself the title of Journal Artist. I have always loved paper and I think it is just so cool that I take some paper and some board and create something that people can use as a tool to help them through their life’s journey.
When I first had this grand idea to make journals I was really excited about making them but also helping people to understand how to use them. Being the strategic planner that I am, was, still am but kind of in recovery, I came up with a plan to get my Life Coaching certification so I could marry my journals with a personal growth concept. So I set out to work my plan and it all happened, except I kept telling myself that I needed more certifications and more whatevers to actually be prepared to do what I wanted to do. This was bull. I kind of knew it was bull but it let me procrastinate and hide behind the norm for a little, a lot bit longer. So instead of doing the “thing” that I wanted to do I kind of did the “thing” that I had been certified to do. I set up a coaching practice (just as I had been taught) and went about the business of doing something different than what I wanted to do. The internal struggle was real, but once you get started in one direction it’s hard to navigate in a different direction especially if the direction you are going in is well received. I.E. people like and understand this coaching thing so I guess I will keep doing it. But I am a firm believer in doing what you love and I found that I was often looking for ways to not do what I was supposed to be doing, so it was clearly not what I loved. I did realize however, that I loved being in the studio creating journals and sharing with people how they could use journaling in their lives. I knew 3 years ago that there was a concept to develop there but I didn’t take time to develop it because I was now busy making journals for other coaches and facilitators. Another navigational change! For a while, it was completely fulfilling to make journals for coaches but soon I realized that it was starting to feel more like production and I knew from my former life as a stationery designer that I am not a “production” kind of girl. It took me a year to work my way out of that channel of focus and now I am back to where I was a few years ago but this time I have a clear understanding of what I don’t need to do in order to do what I want to do. I also have a different level of confidence in my desire to be different and introduce concepts that are new and refreshing. You see I always had confidence in my ability but not necessarily confidence in my desire. Sometimes it feels weird to want to be different. But as I tell my son if you are going to be “weird” or “different” go hard with it.
I recently finished my new collections of journals and I am preparing to launch my first concept event. I’ve given myself 60 days to do it. I figured it would be fitting to blog about it. It will be a fun way to hold myself accountable. I’m not going to reveal the event just yet but at the right moment you’ll know and at that moment I’ll know what it’s like to finally allow myself to really put out there the complete package of what I love to do.